Latest first - down, below, at the end of the page, you can read all other EX-YIDL''s testimonies meaningful lifeMojca Černelč Koprivnikar ex Yoga Instructor and Group Leader for Workshops at YIDL, Ljubljana ( lawyer by profession ) meaningful lifeAndreja Vukmir , Anandi ,psychologist by profession Workshops
Report us click here- Report AbuseYoga Brothers and Sisters! WorkshopsWe spent so many years together: working together, attending meetings, sharing our lives and so many moments in yoga together, and that's the reason why I would like to explain why I no longer attend meetings and yoga practice, and why I am no longer present in the association. meaningful life WorkshopsWhen I started practicing yoga at the age of 22 and later by attending Swamiji's seminars, Workshops my life was given a completely new essence. So much that I decided to visit Jadan already after a year of practising yoga, and I spent two and a half years of a very fulfilling and meaningful life there. There are no words to describe how seriously I took the yoga philosophy as a whole, and above all the relationship between Swamiji and me. I took my discipleship meaningful life seriously and with full responsibility. An entire page would not suffice to describe how I experienced our relationship, and in what ways it determined and gave meaning to my life. Immeasurably. For me, it was a source of wisdom and guidance that directed my life and actions. meaningful life During all these years I have tried to serve and work for Yoga in Daily Life (Joga v vsakdanjem življenju) to the best of my abilities. Sometimes more, sometimes less. But always with the same purpose: to serve and to do good. meaningful lifeI've had many beautiful and meaningful experiences. Not only FROM MY relationship with Swamiji, but also in our yoga community: all the acquaintances, friends, our collaboration, etc. meaningful life Workshops
I have to admit that I had felt that something was wrong already before the affair involving the abused women. I had not, however, dared to consider my feelings as something valid, let alone significant. I had always managed to attribute them to my possible “miscomprehension”. meaningful life Workshops
When Swamiji's sexual affairs were disclosed, I was not only very shocked. I was shattered. At the same time, I did not fully reject this possibility. Workshops A seed of doubt managed to become planted deep in my mind. And there were many reasons that made this possible. meaningful life The first one was my own experience of a strange kiss. Back then it shocked me, and it was hard for me to “work through it”. meaningful life In India and a few years after my return home I spent a great deal of time among the people surrounding Swamiji. From this perspective, many things were very different than from the perspective of a seminar participant. From this first-hand “perspective”, I had the chance to see many things from within, and I remember - especially during my stay in India - that I was surprised at the strange promiscuous behaviour of some yoga centre “leaders”. meaningful life I kept asking myself how they could be holding such high positions. And I also kept telling myself that in yoga, in this all-embracing love - the most powerful force that can make us change - there was a place for every single person, regardless of his/her human weaknesses. meaningful life It goes without saying, of course, that I also met exceptionally devoted, hardworking, ethical, and loyal people. meaningful life These people had devoted 20 or even 30 years of their lives to yoga, and yet some of them left yoga at that time. No one could convince me that they had become insane or something like that. meaningful life I am a therapist by profession, and I know something about the profile of people who, so to say, ”flip out”. All this was nagging at me, and I just couldn't find peace. But I also found it impossible that Swamiji would act like that. meaningful life I myself did not hear nor see anything. During all that time I was struggling with myself and becoming ever more reserved. meaningful lifeAll this changed when Maša told me her story. We were together during our entire stay in India, meaningful life Workshops
and since then we've remained connected in our own way. Workshops Maša is like a sister to me, a younger sister maybe. I have always felt protective towards her, and I really love her very much. When she told me she was leaving the yoga community, I did not ask her for reasons. meaningful life I only told her that she was not my friend because we were together at yoga but because I appreciated her as a human being. meaningful life She said she would like to tell me something, and one evening in a moment of confidence, Workshops she shared her story with me. meaningful life I had mixed feelings about it. At first, I was completely astonished, after that devastated, and this was followed by feelings of guilt, anger, and deep sadness. There was never a moment when I would doubt her story – and I am stressing this more for others than for myself. meaningful life I fully support her. Workshops Maša is like a sister to me, Workshops and I'm going to stand by her regarding this story. When I thought back – after all the two of us had been sharing a room for two years – I finally understood why she kept going out in the evenings. Swamiji used to invite her to his rooms in the evenings. At the very beginning of my yoga life and in my own immaturity, Workshops I came to the conclusion that she was obviously a “better” disciple, that she was something “special”. meaningful life At times it even hurt me. Days after her confession I reproached myself for not having noticed it! How could it have been going on in front of my eyes, and I did not see it. Within the context of faith in your master, I would have never even thought of this Workshops possibility. meaningful life As a matter of fact, it would have been the last thing to occur to me. Maša, of course, didn't dare tell me anything because she knew our stay in Jadan would be over, and I would ”flip out”, and also Swamiji told her she should keep quiet since it was a guru vakya. meaningful life Who on earth would dare oppose such an absolute as a guru vakya? At that point in my life, at that stage of my own journey, I would not have dared to go so far. Workshops At the same time, however, I was witnessing her health deteriorating month after month during the two years in India, where Maša got severely ill. Already then I knew that the source of her problem was to be sought on the mental level. But still I would find excuses in banalities like “cleansing”, and the like. meaningful life
Today I am a therapist and I have some knowledge of neurology, and I know for sure that such “cleansings” don't exist, at least not the cleansings we have come up with in yoga. meaningful life
I must say, however, I found it repulsive that Yogesh visited Maša during his last visit to Slovenia, and tried to convince her that Swamiji was a tantric master. But I'll come back to this issue later. meaningful life
This second story was as shocking as the first one for me. I know of at least six more women, and some of you who are going to read this, are among them. You know it. I just hope you manage to find enough courage to speak out one day. meaningful life And I hope that those of you, who think this kind of behaviour was meant for your own good, realize you were just abused. Secrets are one of the most destructive things for a human and his/her surroundings. meaningful life This applies to individuals and systems alike. Secrets have an incredible power, and above all it takes a lot of energy to maintain them. meaningful life They determine how a person feels, acts, and relates to others. They prevent us from being genuine, and from relating to others. They caseate, so to speak, and they infect. When the scandal came to light, Swamiji called each woman (most of them grown-up women now) and told them they should not talk about this, and keep quiet. meaningful life
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